ironic

many people have asked me why i have this ironic status everywhere...what does it mean? what i wanna say?
i told them...nothing...it's just a mood...just a way of feeling...not that i am ironic, i mean i am but this is not the point. i see time ironic f.e or life...it's like life is mockin you.
yeah i see that ironic...how u perceive a thing in a way and how that thing turns out to be something else....ironic ini't?
or else...like in the same time on 2 different channels you listen to same news but even though the core is the same the news looks totaly different from a chanel to another... is like telling a lie dressed in a truth coat...
as i can see it it's kinda hard to tell 2 true things about a matter in 2 different ways...but meaning the same thing...like on 1 way u deny it conscionsly and on the other hand u approve it conscionsly....funny, no...just ironic!
i don't expect you to understand...i don't want to is just another fucked up theory that i wrote in the so called "public diary"...
i am really sleepy now...and it's like an entire night waiting for me...but i'm really not in the mood. what would i do now? jump, run, hide and deny any conflictual dilema of the heart...pass on a box and move on to other level...shut up and kiss the rain, close the eyes and open my umbrella...sit down and dance and fall asleep and forget to dream....

p.s i miss paris....